In My Own Prison

Tonight is one of those nights where I need to blog to get my emotions out. I don’t know how to explain how I feel on nights like this. There is really nothing that triggers my emotions. I just feel anxious and unsettled. I am exhausted but I can’t go to bed because that’s when its worse.

I am so tired of being alone. I am ready for my husband to be home. I am ready for this nightmare to be over with.

I would love to know how others in this situation deal with issues like this. At times I feel like I need to go to the Dr and get some medication but I don’t want to be dependent on something. That is one reason behind this blog, to help me deal with stress and express how I am feeling.

I titled this blog “Imprisoned on the Outside” because that’s what it’s like when you have a loved one in prison. They may be in a prison made of cement walls and barbed wire fences but we are in our own prison. A prison of emotions.

I have tried different methods of dealing with stress. I read, I pray, I exercise, I eat (not a good idea), I try to talk to friends but no one understands how I am feeling. Hopefully this blog helps me deal with this stress.

I would love to hear from others on how you deal with stress.